Well, have had some important to me Mothers Day calls

The pressures on from Calgary and Manitoba relatives, all worried about me alone and without family, especially if I need help and they don't know or aren't there for me to help. My kid even pushing me to move back to Winnipeg to be close to family and get a life again (can't afford Calgary life) ... I'm thinking about Winnipeg again, as I often do. Has its pros and cons for me for sure, from climate and mosquitos to knowing there are things back there I don't want too closely effecting me and my life and can I handle that? No dependent kids to consider first anymore, so ... its an option.

Getting a life again would be good. I'm not the type to be able to handle a lot of shifting around in unfamiliar places and back home is roots and familiar and I'm old. I dunno what will come ... but this Mother's Day my kids are grown and nested elsewhere and I'm a free Mom and independent to nest somewhere and stay put too (which I CRAVE)

I certainly wouldn't rent a Winterpeg bunker this time though

Winterpeg? Oh yikes ... but ... oh so familiar.

By the way, the conversation with my sister got me going again. My other sister, we always have "issues" with each other, but it always lands in the family bond again, she's a tough one to be close with for anyone, was asking my other sister about me today, asking if I was still in Toronto. When told where I live she said "Oh no. That's so far away. What if something happens and no one knows to tell us, she needs help or has problems and we don't know and can't do anything" worry worry worry ... made me cry to think of her thinking about me like that ... and made me miss her. Family. They're all doing barbeques and such for the "Moms" today. I miss all that family stuff.

Am obviously have some weak moments here. But ... I need rootedness. Will keep ya posted